A Little Update
Ever since my second semester at York started, I’ve found it really hard to find time writing here. I also don’t really want to ramble about how my bus ride to school was or anything, because I don’t think people would particularly care =)
I do want to say that I probably sounded more composed than I actually during my last post. For some reason, I felt pretty bad after my University of Toronto interview. It wasn’t like a did completely awful (at least I don’t think I did). But for whatever reason, I kept dwelling on the 2 or 3 questions I didn’t think I performed my best on. And when you keep thinking about just the bad stuff, it makes you feel as if the whole thing was bad. I think I was also partially upset that I couldn’t sleep the night before, as that definitely significantly affected my focus that day.
One of the things about myself has been my ability to (for the most part) do really well under pressure and step up when it counts. That didn’t really happen on Sunday, and so that’s partially why it kept eating at me. After almost a week has passed, however, I am feeling a lot better and just going to remain optimistic about my chances.
I try to come off as composed and confident whenever I write, because that’s not only what I hope you guys aspire to, but it’s something I aspire to myself – I want to be able to not worry about random stuff and lose sleep at night. Maybe some people think I am this super human for whom things always go well and I never fail - unfortunately, I am just as imperfect, obsessive, and paranoid as anyone else.
I wish I could write more, but I’m in a pretty tired mood after staying up most of Thursday night to study for a test yesterday (not surprising obviously!).
Hopefully I am awake enough to write something a bit more lengthy this week – I miss writing, but I keep feeling way too exhausted to put together anything meaningful.
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- Post-UofT Interview Feelings
- Post-McMaster Interview Thoughts
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Comments
Ah the interview you thought you did well (queens one), you ended up being waitlisted and the interview you thought did not go well ended up being the one offering you an acceptance. Haha that has happened to me quite a few times too.
But don’t you think you kind of had an advantage since your brother went through all those interviews too… so you kinda had an idea of what kind of question would be asked? just wondering
I think that it’s precisely the obsessive and paranoid part of our personality which characterizes med hopefuls as med hopefuls. With the rat race that the application process has become, it’s hard to stay calm, collected, and unstressed as an undergraduate student. I wonder if anyone’s conducted a study on the anxiety related health disorders of those entering first year medical school!